memoirs, art and fragments by Thomas Milner

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Hemmed in by events

I’m checking into hospital on Monday 11th Feb for another bout of neurosurgery (round 4) so all my psychic energy will be focussed on that.

And if you were to ask how I felt about this, I would reply:

Vexed, displeased, irked and gutted

Fed-up and put-upon,

Hemmed in by events,

Squeezed by fate

HEMMED IN - PAINTING by THOMAS MILNER

HEMMED IN – PAINTING by THOMAS MILNER

A bit like this picture in fact

Extraction at dawn

Now listen up Mister

Bad news

We’re going to have to send in

Another extraction team

Midwinter spring

Early at dawn

We land on the beach

Two teams

One to crack open the cliff

And the other

Search & destroy squad

Enter and locate and extract

That goddam cell

Any questions Mister?

Sir, no Sir

Are we reading from the same page Mister?

Sir, yes Sir.

A star is born

MY BRAIN - PAINTING by THOMAS MILNER

Meningiomas are a diverse set of brain tumors arising from the meninges, the membranous layers surrounding the central nervous system.

Monday June 28th 2010

I’m feeling a bit nervous today about my consultation at the hospital when I will receive the results of the MRI brain-scan that I had last month, despite various assurances from people claiming to have some inside knowledge of the workings of God’s mind (Deus é Grande).

I sit in the doctor’s office while he intently studies the images on the screen (while I intently study his face). He is taking longer than usual: no, he concludes, the brain is clean …

(whew! what a relief!)

… but you do have a new one forming, its tiny, nothing to worry about for now.

He points out, on the contrast-imaging, a white speck of light on the black perimeter of my brain.

I am crestfallen and struggle to maintain my equilibrium.

Great, I think bitterly, that’s all I needed – another bleeding little star is born.

ANOTHER STAR IS BORN

 

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